Leave me breathless

The baby has really been squeezing my lungs in the last week, leaving me breathless with the tiny bit of movement. Clearly, the baby has not lowered down yet.

I managed to arrange the baby's cloths in her wardrobe though. So a few more things to do before the big arrival but I am getting there.

I've just noticed a couple of brand new stretch marks in my lower tummy. By now, I am ok with stretch marks. I got used to living with them after having two babies already. But after my second baby, I was never able to get rid of the excess skin on my tummy. So I am quite worried that the excess skin will look uglier after the third one.

Curiosity

I don't even drink that much water, so I don't know where it comes from but I find myself rushing to the toilet every half an hour lately.

Now that I have 9 weeks left, my curiosity grows everyday about the new baby. I can't wait to see her, meet her. I think she will have such a fantastic character, personality; a wonderful human being. I know it because she has been through so much. She is already amazing to me!

Nesting?

A friend of mine just asked me if I am sure whether or not I am having twins! I felt like a whale already, now I know I look like a whale.

Being in the last 10 weeks of pregnancy (approximately) kind of put me in a panic mode; now I realise I need to start buying again all the baby items I had given away, get the baby's room ready etc. I don't want to be caught unprepared in case the baby arrives early.

I am a whale!

I have just seen recent photos of myself and the situation is worse than I thought! And this time around I am definitely exercising more than I did with my previous two pregnancies. Though, I cannot stop myself from grazing on sugary snacks after I put the kids to bed. It's like that's my "me time" and that's how I can enjoy it.

The midwife had told me that with each pregnancy, the toll it takes on the body is harder, more difficult. I am quite worried about how or if my body will be able to recover from all that I am going through.

I just don't feel like being among other human beings. I feel so ugly and unpresentable.

On the other hand, I want the baby to feel loved and cared for. I hope I can project that to her even now.

Tickles

I cannot believe that I am already in the third trimester! Though I still have 3 months to go, which is a dread...

But my little baby is full on with her kicks, especially in the evenings and I can feel her tiny little feet. I can just about size her tiny feet. I even try to play with her when she is kicking. I try to tickle her feet back. I am really enjoying this game :-)

On the other hand, the varicose on my right calf is so massive and it is getting bigger and bigger. My leg is in a constant pain, I cannot stand up for too long, which is very annoying. I hope that this problem can easily be resolved after the baby is born.