Work work work

I need the money but I can't get the motivation. I have work and yet I feel so tired, I can't be bothered anymore. I don't know if it is because my 20 month old son has already started jumping out of his cot, which makes me so anxious for his safety and of course disrupts my sleep further. Just in time before the new baby arrives!

Last week, our next door neighbour's builders were using some sort of strong smelling glue for their new kitchen roof. My goodness...our entire house smelled like a chemical factory. I just hope that it didn't affect the baby in anyway. 

Still not ready

The midwife told me in my last appointment that the baby could arrive even within 3 weeks. My panic mode is in red alert. I am not ready at all!

I still need to sort out the baby's room. We are still to decide on a name. We still need to sort out who is going to look after our first one when we are at the hospital. And I still need to spend more quality, cuddling time with my first one! Panic panic panic!!!!

Already a Failure?

It has been weeks since I stopped any sort of exercise, cleaning, cooking and eating properly, talking to my baby or making my baby listen to music all because of work. I have to spend hours and hours by the desk, across a computer, sitting on a chair. I feel absolutely awful. I already feel like a failed mother, not being able to take care of my baby and doing things I had dreamt of doing in the last weeks of my pregnancy. I am worried…