Now too small?!

I had a scare at my last midwife appointment where it turned out my belly shrunk by about 3cm! The midwife referred me for a growth scan. I've been so worried about the baby's development, whether the placenta has been functioning properly and hoping that it is just the baby's positioning.

I had the scan today and thankfully everything measured within the scale and the baby's weight seems to be 2.99kg at the moment. It's such as relief! i just hope that the baby keeps developing and gaining weight normally. She is still positioned sideways, so that might be the reason for measuring smaller. It is actually quite strange since I feel like a whale!

On the other hand, I am  so exhausted, I had to stop working earlier than planned. My second one (20 months old now) is getting off his bed at night and seems like getting into a phase of terrible twos. Great timing really!

Scary tantrums

As my first one's terrible twos have suddenly reappeared and getting so close to the due date, I am getting more and more worried about how I am going to handle everything when the new baby arrives.

Worse is not getting any help. Someone always has an excuse for something. Even within family, my fatigue is downplayed and I am asked to shake it up and come back to my senses. When I react to such comments, I am branded as "aggressive." Some people really do not know how to empathise. 

Baby Qualities

At our NCT class last weekend, we were asked about a quality we would like our child to have. Of course, almost all mothers, including myself said “healthy and happy.” This is really all I care about. Some dads said they would like their child to be sportive and have a left foot. I was so proud and impressed with my husband’s answer though. He said that he hoped our child to be kind and generous. Very sweet!

Now that I am in the 36^th week of my pregnancy, with the knowledge that the baby could arrive any time, I am no longer scared of the actual labour and birth, thanks to the ante-natal classes. However, my anxiety over how our lives will change once the baby arrives, whether I will be an adequate mum and whether I had enough of the nutritions my baby needed to develop well has come back.

I have also noticed that I have been growing sideburns and a beard! Gosh, these hormones are really changing my appearance. I really hope that this excess hair will disappear soon after the baby is born as people claim they do…