Bodily Changes

I have no idea if my husband agrees with me but there is something strangely feminine about owning a pregnant body. Even though I am undoubtedly bigger and fatter, my big belly doesn’t bother me at all.

Under normal circumstances, if my belly became slightly bigger, I would feel completely not myself, down and heavy. However, the pregnancy belly and the pounds I put on as well as the other changes in my body strangely make me feel more womanly now. I no longer have a teenager’s body but a woman’s. And I am quite enjoying it.

Planet

My belly has grown so much in the last few days and my thighs and bums became so big that I feel like a planet. And I still have 4 months to go! I am scared of becoming so big.

On the other hand, I become more and more anxious and lose sleep if I don’t feel the baby move as much as before. I am an anxious wreck.

My GP told me today that my belly is the perfect size and the baby is hiding in the back of the placenta so the sound of its heartbeat can be heard only so faintly.

In the meantime, I should really cut down on my ridiculously increased chocolate intake. It is not helping me become any smaller. 

The Bump

I definitely show my bump now and no one restraints themselves from touching my belly or spreading the news on my behalf. My face, thighs and bum getting fatter do not help the situation much either.

My mom was angry with me for not finding out the gender of my baby at my 20 week scan last week. To be fair, it was a stranger experience than the 12 week scan and I wasn’t completely at ease as the baby was facing down and not moving. It was very difficult to get any images or measurements, so I became even more anxious about the health of the baby. I have been told that everything is fine and normal but I can’t help but be worried all the time.

On the other, my baby seems to enjoy Mozart, Vivaldi and Bach already as it gives me kicks when I put the headphones on my belly. However, Beethoven, Debussy and Chopin were not my baby’s favorites as there was no reaction to them.

Baby Shower

This week I got to travel overseas, go around both with my parents and in-laws and have a baby shower.

Thankfully the 4 hour air journey was not a strain and I got to eat my mom’s delicious and healthy cooking. In 5 days, my belly has grown tremendously. Previously, it wasn’t very easy to tell whether or not I was pregnant. After spending 5 days at my parents’ house, no one can now doubt it.

My best friend organized a lovely baby shower in my home country and I got to meet with girl friends from each stage of my life. It was absolutely lovely and made me very happy.