Horror at Seeing Photos

I have just seen recent photos of myself and I was horrified - especially by the ones taken from the back. I look truly fat.

Otherwise, I really have to rely on this blog to remember which week I am in. It is so strange that this time, I am not as on top of things as I was with my first pregnancy.

I can't believe that now there are only 6 weeks left! Oh dear! Panic panic panic...

Pigmentation & Wi-Fi

I have really bad skin pigmentation that came out in this pregnancy; mainly on my forehead, between my brows, cheeks and around my nose. I don't know if it has to do with the fact that I have aged since my last pregnancy or because I was more exposed to sun during our holidays. But they look horrible and I really do hope that they will disappear after the pregnancy.

I am also truly worried about the Wi-Fi that I am surrounded with. I have been reading about the bad effects of Wi-Fi on the baby during the pregnancy and before the age of 3. I simply cannot manage to make our home Wi-Fi free as my husband doesn't believe in it. But all day, while working I am exposed to it closely through the computer and my phone. Very scary.

Work has been terribly busy lately and my first one demands my attention so sweetly all the time. She just wants to play with me and spend time with me and I haven't been able to give her what she deserves lately because of work. I feel absolutely terrible and guilty about it. When I go to bed at night, I cannot sleep thinking about it. I just want my projects to be over so I can dedicate 100% of my time to my daughter.

Otherwise, whilst this pregnancy is flying by, it is going so smooth and I already feel sad that it will be over pretty soon. I enjoy being pregnant and whilst I know that the next stage is very difficult, I kind of, secretly, wish to be pregnant again. It is just a wonderful, beautiful feeling. 

Heavy

I have already gained 15 kg. I am so massive. With still 8 weeks to go, I am scared about how much bigger I will become.

The baby has started to move a lot more as well. I do enjoy feeling the movements very much.

My first one's routine has completely changed as we were on holiday without her and she has become more sensitive, which makes me feel so guilty and regretful. I really want to spend and dedicate the rest of my pregnancy to spending time with her as I am worried how she will react when the baby arrives.

Deciding the name of the baby is proving extremely difficult also. It is causing me so much stress. I need a lot of inspiration.

Pregnant Traveller - Now a No No for Me

We are still traveling, still away from my first one and I am simply unable to enjoy anything. The news I am getting that my first one's routine and behaviour have completely changed is not helping either. I am in major panic that I have so much work to do when I go back and at the same time I have to get my first one back to normal before the new baby arrives. Terrifying.

To top it all, in the US - a first world country where u would never think such things would be an issue- traveling as a pregnant woman is not the best. The horrible smells, which come out if every building, the aged air conditioning, which all need their filters changed and which are impossible to escape as they are everywhere, the cigarette and cigar smoke lurking on the streets, high usage of mayonnaise, corn syrup and high fructose in every single dish turned the trip into a nightmare for me. Back home, I am so spoiled. I am spared from all these unhealthy factors that would put my baby in danger. Here I cannot escape them and this is worrying me big time about the health of my unborn child. My skin has burned despite rainy weather band sunscreen and the lotion I put on my body afterwards stung like a bee, which is very worrying too. I am just praying that none of this is badly affecting the baby I am carrying.